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rainy season

2014
04.27

The pouring rain outside of my window is the perfect weather to match my mood. To me it’s not depressing, but rather just a season of life. It’s beautiful and produces growth to the things which desperately need it. Some might see the rain as a time to do nothing (it certainly does make excellent napping.) The general idea is sun=productively and rain=laziness. At this time in my life, there is a lot of raining. I’m leaving the place I’ve called home for the past three years and the people I’ve called family. It hurts. All the things that have been filling my time, all the friend’s I’ve invested in won’t be around anymore. I will no longer have the familiar and this to me feels like rain. It’s beautiful, indeed; All the seasons God produces are lovely. However, it’s also bitterly sad. I’ll miss it here at my Christian College and there will be a hole in my heart that God, in time, will heal. As I stated, rain causes growth for things which desperately need it. It’s time for me to grow. God has many plans for me and it’s time for the next chapter.

It’s been a real temptation to want to stop doing anything. I have in my mind that I should stop ministering, because right now I’m sad. God does not take breaks, thank goodness. It’s been so interesting, because towards the end of the year everything normally slows down. This has not been true for me. I was asked to be one of the graduation speakers. WHAT?! Umm, can you say scary? I have never, ever spoken in front of that many people. To make it even more freaky, I’m sharing my testimony. That’s way personal. However, it’s obvious that God is still growing me. I may want to take a nap, but God has other plans.

I’m so thankful that God is nothing like humans and that every moment is a moment to shape His children. He’s always held me in His hand and guides me with His staff and rod. So even though my flesh wants to stop, He carries me through. I realize this all sounds terribly depressing, but it’s not so. It’s wonderful. I’m looking forward to seeing how God works in my heart through this rainy season of my life.

 

 

 

 

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