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what Christ has done.


2014
04.29

Today in chapel the President of the school had students share what Christ has done for the personally during their time at school. I didn’t share anything today, but I will tomorrow. No, today, I sat and listened to my classmates in amazement. I’m so proud of them and blessed to be in their lives. Many of them spoke of the family we have at school. They weren’t just saying it to be sentimental, they were saying it because it’s true. People say that going to college will be great! You’ll make lots of contacts that’ll come in handy later. Some say that you’ll make the friends you’ll keep forever. These are both true, but you can’t always say you’ll meet new family. They will love you and par for you and always give you a place to stay. That’s a precious gift. If you are looking at schools right now, listen here, pray about where your family is. You don’t want just any school or Christian College, you want the best God has for you. Oohh I will cry and weep and eat and repeat when I leave. My heart is with these people, but I’m so thankful that there are no real goodbyes within the body of Christ. There is always a next time.

Oh and here’s what I’m planning on sharing tomorrow…

The past three years I’ve learned I’m disgusting. I’m extremely sinful. I’m lazy, get annoyed way fast, lie, gossip, lust and commit many sins I don’t even realize yet. God though, God is perfect. He is nothing like me. *sigh of relief* He is great, power, patience, honest, fair, righteous, kind, loving and the list goes on and on. He is everything I’m not and could ever hope to be. This is why we crave Him so much. I’ve not only understood my sinfulness to a new degree, I’ve also realized my weakness. I’ll tell you what, I’ve been asked to do more scary things at school than my whole life. When I got asked to speak at the ladies retreat, I cried. I get so nervous speaking in front of people and yet am constantly asked to do it. Again, speaking at Graduation…no. I don’t want to. I’m horrified. However, God is not like me. He is not afraid and He will be right there guiding my words. Praise the Lord! Christ has done a work in me which magnifies His glory. That is a lesson that I will carry with me no matter what I’m doing after school.

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rainy season


2014
04.27

The pouring rain outside of my window is the perfect weather to match my mood. To me it’s not depressing, but rather just a season of life. It’s beautiful and produces growth to the things which desperately need it. Some might see the rain as a time to do nothing (it certainly does make excellent napping.) The general idea is sun=productively and rain=laziness. At this time in my life, there is a lot of raining. I’m leaving the place I’ve called home for the past three years and the people I’ve called family. It hurts. All the things that have been filling my time, all the friend’s I’ve invested in won’t be around anymore. I will no longer have the familiar and this to me feels like rain. It’s beautiful, indeed; All the seasons God produces are lovely. However, it’s also bitterly sad. I’ll miss it here at my Christian College and there will be a hole in my heart that God, in time, will heal. As I stated, rain causes growth for things which desperately need it. It’s time for me to grow. God has many plans for me and it’s time for the next chapter.

It’s been a real temptation to want to stop doing anything. I have in my mind that I should stop ministering, because right now I’m sad. God does not take breaks, thank goodness. It’s been so interesting, because towards the end of the year everything normally slows down. This has not been true for me. I was asked to be one of the graduation speakers. WHAT?! Umm, can you say scary? I have never, ever spoken in front of that many people. To make it even more freaky, I’m sharing my testimony. That’s way personal. However, it’s obvious that God is still growing me. I may want to take a nap, but God has other plans.

I’m so thankful that God is nothing like humans and that every moment is a moment to shape His children. He’s always held me in His hand and guides me with His staff and rod. So even though my flesh wants to stop, He carries me through. I realize this all sounds terribly depressing, but it’s not so. It’s wonderful. I’m looking forward to seeing how God works in my heart through this rainy season of my life.