Archive for February, 2014

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Small case of Senioritis.


2014
02.22

Last weekend I got to go home. It was glorious. I always forget just how much I miss my family until I see them. God has been working in them and it’s an awesome sight to behold. They are becoming increasingly involved in ministry. This is encouraging for me to share in the same vision as them. However, since being back at school, I feel like I should be graduated. I think this is what people call “senioritis.” In pervious blogs, I’ve shared how I struggle with apathy and I guess this is just another case of that.

Here’s the thing though, I’m kind of thankful for it. I’m a planner. I make lists for all the homework I have months in advance. I can’t relax unless my bed is made. I thrive off of organization and can’t stand falling behind. Whether or not my motivation is good…I get things done. All that said, most the time I’m so stressed over assignments and whatever else that I don’t enjoy school. The past few days I have been more chill, but things have gotten done. I guess I’m just seeking balance for the next 68 days.

I also had the chance to talk to my Pastor and Youth Pastor about an internship for next year. They both seem excited and ready for me to help out in various ways. It’s cool to be planning what’s next. I love that my Christian College has prepared me to go into ministry and I believe this internship will help also. Then, there’s the Europe vision trip I have coming up in July. Our team has been meeting every Monday for preparation and prayer. It seems way too surreal to be going. I’m nervous about support raising, because I’ve never been the best at it. God is going to grow me in that area, I’m sure of it.

I’ve also been watching a lot of I Love Lucy and drinking far too much coffee. That’s just flat out good for the soul.

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Just Love Jesus.


2014
02.12

It’s amazing how easy it is to become discouraged. I can be doing well and enjoying life, then one second later, hating myself. I quickly switch from secure and confident to insecure and wanting to hide. Why does that happen? Sometimes I lie to myself and think it’s just the stage of life I’m in; once I’m out of college and more “mature” it won’t be like that. We all know that’s false. Discouragement is a backpack we drop and pick up over and over again all through life.

I listen to all the voices around me, telling me what to do and who to be. The worst of them all is my own. I’m definitely my hardest critic. What’s funny is I tend to make “God’s will” a burden that weighs heavy on my life, ¬†always worrying about what’s the right thing. God’s will for my life is not a prison, but freedom.

My friend reminded me of something last night and it was just what I needed to hear. “You shall love the Lord your God with all your heart, with all your soul and with all your mind.” Matt. 22:31

Sometimes I read this verse and freak out. How the heck do I do that? It sounds overwhelming, but it’s actually extremely simply. Just love Jesus. Don’t try to be good or always try to figure out what He desires for your life, just love Him with your whole being. When you wake up in the morning, remind yourself Jesus loves you and when you go to bed at night. He will take care of everything else.

This has been encouraging to me at this time, because I have been easily discouraged by my own actions. However, I haven’t been focusing on my love for God. I’ve been focusing on me and material things that will fade.

One of the cool things about my Christian College is that we have a missions conference every semester and this week it’s happening. I’ve been hearing sooooo much about what God is doing all over the world and how I could be a part of it. While this can be overwhelming, it shouldn’t be. I just need to love Jesus and He’ll place me right where He wants me.

 

So if you’re feeling discouraged, insecure, stressed or frustrated…you’re human. Just remember to love Jesus.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

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Cold and Busy.


2014
02.06

It’s been cold. It’s been really cold. I never want to leave my bed and sometimes I don’t. It’s also been busy, which is another reason to not leave my bed. So what do you do? When you’re so cold and busy that you don’t want to leave your bed? The answer to this question is one I’ve been seeking to find and here’s what I’ve come up with…

1.) If you are going to school somewhere that is so cold, dress warm and bring a blanket to class. I get teased, but honestly, it makes life (and the walk to class) so much more doable.

2.) Drink tea. It relaxes you. For me, it’s been great for both business and chilliness.

3.) Don’t hide from people. When I have so much to do, I normally hide to avoid losing focus. However, I’ve found that when I surround myself with people trying to accomplish the same task, I’m in a much better mood and get it done faster.

4.) Snacks. However, don’t just eat junk food. That works against you. I’ve been eating a lot of raw nuts and raisons.

5.) Get some perspective. Your paper is not the world. It won’t be an issue in a year. Do your best, but don’t forget reality.

6.) Take breaks. Sometimes you just need to watch “Say Yes to the Dress.” mmmhmm.

7.) Spend time with God. Honestly, whenever I’m in prayer, things are better. The past couple of days I’ve been stressing over a paper on Martin Luther and not really spending great time with God. This makes me grumpy. However, when I do spend time with God, I remember why I’m even at a Christian College. I want to glorify Him in all that I do.

Now, the end of my week draws near and it’s almost the weekend. (Thank the Lord!!!) And I’m looking forward to not being so busy, but still probably being cold. At least I won’t have to get out of bed.