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Follow Me.


2014
01.23

Recently God has been teaching me a lesson. This lesson is one that is frustrating, challenging and seems as simple as can be. Here it is: “So he left all, rose up, and followed Him.” That is a verse in Luke 5. It’s right after Jesus went up to Matthew, the tax collector, and said “Follow Me.” This is probably one of my favorite verses in the Bible. What strikes me is that it says Matthew left all, even before he stood up. That shows that in his heart he was ready to give up everything.

I’m not so sure this is me right now. I keep thinking about how I’m called to full-time ministry and yet I’m terrified of not being by my family. That is probably the scariest thing ever to me. I’m graduating from my Christian College in 98 days. Things are going to be different. I’m not going to have Bible classes everyday. I’m not going to be surrounded by believers every moment. Living for Christ is going to have to be a choice, but more than that. Being sold out for Christ is going to be a sacrifice. I have to love Him more than anything.

One of the guys in my class preached in Chapel last night. You wanna know the topic? “For me to live is Christ and to die is gain.” Phil. 1:21 His point was that we need to be heaven minded, that’s what we should strive for. Paul had seen the face of Jesus and looked forward to the day when he could be in heaven with Him. Paul also knew that his fight on earth was for the glory of Christ. He wasn’t tied to this earth because of good food, adventures, family or comfort. Paul’s only reason for being on this earth was because God hadn’t taken him home yet. The war wasn’t over, but man, was Paul excited to be with His Lord.

God was so extremely real to Paul. Is God extremely real to me? Is He my only reason for living?

In my section devos this week, one of the girls spoke about trusting God. She used the stories of Noah and Gideon. They trusted God and God took care of them. God is the same yesterday, today and tomorrow. He is the same God who looks after me. Why don’t I try Him? Why am I so afraid? It’s because this world is more real to me than Jesus Christ.

If Christ tells me to follow Him to the unknown will I leave everything, get up and go? Like I said earlier, this is a challenge and I hope God will shape me into that person. I think He already is.

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Here’s to a “growing” semester.


2014
01.18

…Boom. Boom. Boom. Boom. That’s what this semester has felt like thus far. It’s been like an explosion or something else that makes boom sounds. It hasn’t been horrible or anything, just different. It feels like I’m almost done and I’m growing up. The drive back to school alone was a “boom” moment. I was by myself, driving on the scariest, iciest mountain roads. I thought for sure I was dead. There was much crying, praying and holding back sickness. It was a good way to get on track with God before coming to school.

I graduate May 2, do you know how soon that is?! I most certainly do. The past two weeks at school have moved so quickly. Only a few more of those and I’m basically married, with kids, grandkids and retired.

I’m taking 20 credit hours (which is the most I’ve ever done). I don’t personally recommend this amount for a senior, but somehow it’s working out for me.

God has been growing me. I think it’s my friend Sarah’s fault. See, on the day back we prayed together. I prayed that we would have an awesome, enjoyable semester. She prayed that we would have a growing semester. See, see?! Her fault. It’s been good though, truly. I got sick this past week and kinda wished I had died on those icy roads. However, God gave me strengthen and I went to classes. I also got asked to speak at our women’s retreat this March…which is awesome and VERY growing. No matter how many times I speak, I’ll always be nervous, I’m sure of it.

Oh and I have to play dodgeball…growing. I’m not good at anything sporty, at all.

Here’s what I’m learning though, the more I feel like I can’t do any of this, the more I want God to do it. I need Him. I need His strength, His counsel, His discernment and His love. I’m so thankful it’s mine for the taking.

Christian Colleges are awesome too, because of all the godly encouragement I get from the staff. When I was sick, the business manager made me healing soup. It was super spicy. I sweated out all toxins.

Gotta go get ready to play some dodgeball and grow some more. :)