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The Fear.


Even at young adulthood, strange noises and unfamiliar shadows can frighten me in the right instant. Wrapped up in warmth provided by my favorite fuzzy blue blanket and blinded by the darkness, logic sometimes vanishes. In the moments when I’m most comfortable and still, my mind will start playing tricks on itself. I don’t know why it does this, why all our minds do this, but they do. It’s for this reason I believe most people don’t allow themselves to think. They keep busy and turn on media as soon as they’re not. Even as a Christian, when I always have a great hope to think upon and a God of peace, I freak myself out. Now I want to clarify, the fear I’m referring to is not one of good reason; It is the self-inflicted, self-imagined and self-centered type. This fear is something I have recently been experiencing.

I’m a person of change, but also of comfort. So basically, I’m like everyone else. I’d like to think of myself as adventurous, because I love traveling, trying new things and meeting new people. However, like most, I love having somewhat of a comfort zone. These past four years have been absolutely crazy, because everything is constantly moving and nothing stays the same very long. With my nature, that I just described to you, I have a love-hate relationship with that fact. With a new semester approaching, so is that fear to which I was referring. It’s coming at a time when I have been so comfortable, but I’m beginning to hear some strange noises and see unfamiliar shadows.

I found out that a girl in my section and a good friend probably isn’t returning next semester, due to finances. This frightens me for a few reasons. One, I will miss her and she is part of my “comfort zone” but also, I don’t want the dynamic of my section to change. We’re all so close. Another thing, is that this is the last semester for many of my friends. My best friend and roommate will be graduating…(go tell her to not leave.) Then, there’s the fear of failure, which is inevitable. Last semester, I wasn’t always the servant I should have been nor the student.

I am always in God’s hand, which is kind of like being warm in bed, but better. God has grown me abundantly throughout my time at my Christian College and I have every reason to trust Him. However, there’s that vanishing logic problem. You know what’s cool though? God is bigger than logic (or the lack there of.) I KNOW His promises. So, even though I do have some fear about the next semester, I know that God will work in awesome ways, because He always does.


 ”When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; And through the rivers, they will not overflow you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be scorched, Nor will the flame burn you.” Isaiah 43:2 

“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.” Isaiah 41:10

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End of the World.


December 21, 2012: the end of the Mayan calendar and the end of the world as we know it. This idea has caused many people to panic. Some sold their houses, businesses and other possessions. They wanted to be ready. Obviously, considering it’s overdue, this prediction did not transpire. Personally, I wasn’t too concerned, because I have this promise…”No one knows the time or the hour, not even the angels in heaven, nor the Son, but only the Father.” Matt. 24:36

However, something about this whole thing has been making me feel sick. Many Christians have mocked the followers of the maya religion. How could they act with such commitment to something no one can know? I’ve definitely had this thought, but here’s a new one that’s been on my heart, as Christians we KNOW the Lord is coming any day…why aren’t we acting with the same urgency? Why are we not preparing for the Lord’s coming?

Ironically, my school’s theme this last semester was “the coming of the Lord.” It’s been a great reminder to hear various messages and songs about this time. How often we forget the reality of this event. I’ve seen so many people quoting Matt. 24:36 during this whole “end of the world” thing, but many have seemed to forgotten what it says a few verses after. “Therefore, keep watch, because you do not know on what day your Lord should come.” Matt. 24:42 We are told to keep watch (kinda like the maya people watched the calendar.) Only we have something far more reliable, the truth.

I don’t know about you, but my Facebook newsfeed was filled on the 21st with all sorts of 12/21/12 themed statuses. At first, I found them humorous…and then not so much. They mostly consisted of “I’m off to do this…well, if the world doesn’t end.” This is said in a joking tone, but should it be? “Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow. What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.” James 4:14 What if this was our mind set? What if we actually planned on our moments being our last? Hopefully, we’d be a lot more quick to share the Gospel with the lost and wash the feet of our enemies.

I realize that this conviction is greatly do to my Christian College emphasizing the coming of our Savior and I’m grateful. So even though the popular 12/21/12 belief is ridiculous, there is an important principle to be found…prepare for the end of the world, because it will end.

“But the day of the Lord will come like a thief, and then the heavens will pass away with a roar, and the heavenly bodies will be burned up and dissolved, and the earth and the works that are done on it will be exposed.” 2 Peter 3:10

“And now, dear children, continue in him, so that when he appears we may be confident and unashamed before him at his coming.” 1 John 2:28


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Middle of the Road.


I’m half way done with my time at school. Time seriously flies. My last few weeks of this semester were really good. There was the normal staying up way too late to study for finals, coffee, packing and various school events. I miss it already.

We had our Christmas Concert, which was neat, because all of the towns people came to watch. “Hope” was the theme of the night and how the hope we have in Christ is what Christmas is actually about. Annnnddd…I wore a pretty dress. :] Another thing that took place was open dorms. That’s where all the girls get to check out the guys dorms and vice-versa. Guys are weird and smelly. That’s all I have to say about that.

Three occurrences that were pretty special to me were the following. One, the dean of students and his wife took all the RA’s out to dinner. At this dinner, they really shared their hearts with us by reading scripture, expressing gratefulness for what we do and giving us each gifts. There was this one moment when I was reminded so much of Christ washing the disciples feet. That moment was when the dean of woman, who had recently injured her ankle, was limping around the table handing out presents. I highly respect this woman, I look up to her and to see her serving us, even though it caused her pain…it was just such an example of Christ’s love.

Secondly, the last devotional time I had with my section. We had a Christmas themed one, of course. We exchanged gifts, ate cookies, listened to Christmas music, shared holiday traditions and read the story of Christ’s birth. This meant a lot to me, because it was such an encouragement to see that we are a family rooted in Christ. We can have times of fellowship that totally honor our Father in heaven and glorify His name.

Thirdly, I found my mentor! Her name is Mrs. McCoy. She’s fantastic. I’ve mentioned before how important I believe mentorship to be, especially when you’re in leadership. Everyone needs to have a Paul/Timothy relationship. We’ll be meeting once a week next semester, just to talk and pray. I’m so thankful God has put her in my life.

All of these made for a great ending to my 3rd semester at school. They also make for wonderful examples of why Christian Colleges can be so fantastic. They provide opportunities to have godly fellowship or like the Christmas concert, they have events that completely point to Christ.

I couldn’t have asked for a better semester. Praise God. :)