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“These things I command you that you may love one another.” John 15:17

Love is hard. Emotional, feel good, temporary love isn’t. However, actual biblical love is pretty dang difficult. In turn, good friendships are also challenging at times. When you live a dorm with a bunch of girls who are basically your family, there will be moments when you want to hide. But….love doesn’t hide and neither do real friends. The past week I’ve been learning many lessons about friendship and through that, more about Christ.

The first is abundant grace. People are always going to let you down, because we’re all terribly broken. Even at a Christian College people get themselves into trouble and it’s a bummer. But, unconditional love doesn’t dwell on failure. Rather, unconditional love rejoices in opportunity to show grace. Plus, think about how we want people to respond to us when we let them down. . How can we even pretend to have room to not act with this kind of grace? Christ forgives us constantly for failing Him. We tell Him how committed we are and how much we just love Him…and then, in essence, we spit in His face.


The second lesson is taking opportunity. I  have this bad habit of walking past really quickly in the hall to avoid conversation or even staying in my room 10 seconds later while someone walks past my door. Isn’t that horrible?! Why do I do that? If I seriously love these girls, why wouldn’t I want to take every chance to hear about their lives or even just say “hi.” I’ll tell you why, selfishness. Sometimes my flesh does not want to put forth effort. Bleh. God’s been really working on my heart though. I find when I’m yielding to the Holy Spirit, it’s not nearly as difficult.

Last night, at about midnight, I was walking past the laundry room and I saw one of the girls I’ve been really desiring to get to know better. We’d talking about hanging out, but there just hadn’t been a good time. Instead of just continuing walking, I went in and hugged her. We ended up talking till 2:20. Now, staying up this late isn’t a good idea every night, but it was such a blessing.


So when you’re tempted to hide around the corner when someone walks by or be bitter towards someone who hurts you…think about how Christ responds to us.




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A Love Story. <3


I want you to picture for a moment the romance you’ve always imagined. Is it sweet, adventurous, passionate, fun and exciting? Are you with someone who you know loves you, is completely committed, strong and protective? Where would you go with this person? What crazy, marvelous things would you do? Chances are this isn’t the first time you’ve thought about it. Someone probably came to mind right away (even if it is Channing Tatum.)

It’s completely natural to desire a great love story full of all the above characteristics, especially at college. I don’t know about you, but everyone in the world is pairing up at my school. Goodness, it’s even a joke that I go to the school of the “bridal.” However, what I’m realizing is that I’m already a part of a love story, more real than any other.

“Greater love has no one than this, than to lay down one’s life for his friends.” John 16:4

What’s more loving than someone dying for you?

“Now hope does not disappoint, because the love of God has been poured out in our hearts by the Holy Spirit who was given to us.” Romans 5:5

I know, I know…this doesn’t sound very romantic. I mean, it sounds like love for sure, but not the kind you think of receiving from your “soul mate.”

Here’s the deal, God is the ultimate partner. He protects you, guides you, takes you on unbelievable adventures,  He surprises you with gifts daily, He provides for every need and adores you more than any possible human could. No mate, no feeling, no anything could ever compare to the divine romance we have with our Creator.

It’s so easy for me to get distracted by a fear mixed with fantasy. I worry that I’ll never have the marriage I want, the partner I want, but you know what? That’s a lie from the world and it’s at those moments when I have to evaluate if I want the love story the world has to offer or the one Christ has already written just for me.

I’m sharing this with you, because chances are you relate to my struggles. Something about Christian Colleges just makes them the place to get engaged, which, makes sense. When you’re surrounded by people your age, who share the same believes and goals…it just happens. Also, I’m not against relationships!! Just don’t forget your first love.

“Love suffers long and is kind; love does not envy; love does not parade itself, is not puffed up; does not behave rudely, does not seek it’s own, it not provoked, thinks no evil; does not rejoice in in iniquity, but rejoices in truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endure all things.” 1 Corinthians 13:4-8

No person can ever have this kind of love for another person all of the time. However, Christ does for us. Isn’t that amazing? I know I’m not worthy, but He loves me anyway. There’s this song called “Everything” by Lifehouse and the chorus says, “You’re all I want, You’re all I need, You’re Everything, Everything. You’re all I want, You’re all I need. You’re Everything, Everything. And how could I stand here with you and not be moved by you?”

Those are words that are straight out of the love story we have with God. How could we be within His presence and not be completely head over heals?

So I would encourage you to fall more in love with God. Write Him letters, listen to songs that remind you of Him, talk to Him all through your day, spend time in His word and make Him your heart’s desire.

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“Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth!” Psalm 46: 10

The word “peace” has been completely defiled by the world. I think of peace signs, peace tea, hippies or even just the idea of having alone time. When I looked up the definition I got this…

“Peace: : a state of tranquillity or quiet: as a : freedom from civil disturbance

 b : a state of security or order within a community provided for by law or custom”
Unfortunately, I fall into this lie and my idea of peace becomes very worldly. However, recently God’s been teaching me how legit biblical peace truly is.
 Firstly, I’ve been realizing how emotional God is. He does have real feelings towards me and one of which is grief. He hates to see me hurting or stressed. For my devotions, I’m going through the book “Jesus Calling” by: Sarah Young. Well, one morning the topic was about peace and this really stuck out to me.  ”Imagine the pain I feel when one of My children tie themselves up into anxious knots, ignoring My gift of peace. I died a criminal’s death to secure this blessing for you.” Wow…I mean, wow. Doesn’t this just hit you? I hadn’t really thought about it like this before. I’m going into ministry, I’m at a Christian College and most of my time goes into serving or Bible related study; And I get stressed over that?! Christ died for my anxiety and He certainly doesn’t have a place for it in His ministry, so why am I trying to bring it with me?
   Secondly, peace isn’t something that magically comes when no one else is around and there’s silence. Peace is something we are to have all the time. So when I’m talking to person to person and shuffling to get everything done, I should have peace. I don’t think God means physically be still, but rather spiritually. We have to understand that God is God no matter where we are. That is a revelation to me. I so desire to have a spirit of peace and not of stress.
“The Lord bless you and keep you; The Lord make His face shine upon you And be gracious to you; The Lord lift up His countenance upon you, And give you peace.” Numbers 6: 24-26
    Peace is not the absence of war, but rather the state of knowing that the war is won, because Christ us already battled it for us. Peace is not the ability to sit in silence, but rather the ears to hear the Lord above the loudness of the world.
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The Little, Odd, RedBull Monster.


…Bum Bum Bum…it’s that time again. The time when moments pass by faster than you can blink, yet, you need them to slow down desperately because there’s just so much to do. For me, it’s a time of freezing weather, midterms, lectures week, Columbus Day Weekend and even more coffee.  Yes, it’s the end of the first quarter. Whaaaaaaattttt?!

I can’t even began to wrap my head around how speedy this year has been. Seriously, I think there’s some odd creature who drinks way too much RedBull and sucks away everyone’s time. That little creature should be put to death. But anyway, I just got back from a long weekend at home with my family. It was pretty much awesome. Four other girls came back with me and it was really neat to open my home up to them. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that we are people outside of school, but now they feel just like part of my family. Oh and guess what! It snowed while we were gone. What is that? It’s October. It’s ok though, it melted. :)

I’ve been realizing some things the past couple of days as I’ve pondered over the little creature who sucks up my time. I’ve realized that I truly am a completely different person than who I was when I started school. How I go about situations, deal with people and even my relationship with God…all so incomparable to the old. Which I’m extremely grateful for. God obviously brought me to my Christian College to equip, grow and refine me.

I’ve realized just how thankful I am for my teachers, because they DO care about my understanding of their teachings. They’ve explained to us how and why things are done as they are at my school and they’ve also gone through the Doctrine Statement. The staff is my support group and I love them dearly.

Also, I’ve come to the conclusion, yet again, that I severely need God. He keeps me going. He fulfills me. He keeps me on track. Everyday is a battle to live worldly in a ministry environment, because I’m still doing the “work” of God. Oh no no no. No. God doesn’t need our holy work. He wants our heart, passion, desire and energy.

So even though I’m freaked out about the RedBull creature, freezing whether and all the little things, I know that my God is bigger. He’s doing great works in me. I’m excited to see how the rest of the semester goes down. :]:]